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solid ground
solid ground

i shoulda thought this through a little more and keep these last catch-up uploads a bit more chronological, eh? :P my emotions get all out of order, haha. backtrack a bit to summer 2013 for this one, sort of a sequel i suppose to my original walking on water shot from 2011 - even using the same oar: www.flickr.com/photos/karrah_kobus/5995642749/

and here is the original description i wrote with this photo:

sometimes i have to wonder why i beat myself up so bad. i try to be perfect. i try to take the perfect photograph. i try to say the perfect thing, be the perfect person for everyone. sometimes i catch up with myself and remember that "perfect" isnt real. and my perfect, isnt even your perfect, and in the end it all makes so little sense. its silly, because i always feel the worst about myself when i havent been making photos, but i havent been making photos because i feel inferior... and ive been sharing even less because i feel my work isnt where i want it to be. its an old habit that truly has been dying hard - i need to be reminded that im strong and beautiful and worthwhile, cause we all are, arent we? it seems even more silly that my whole world can be rocked so deeply by what was once, not long ago, just a hobby, and a dream. a new little spark in my soul... something i simply craved being "good" at, without even knowing how badly i NEEDED it.

im quite used to giving pep talks at workshops, speaking passionately about following your dreams and never giving up no matter what life throws in your way - even when its yourself. and while i mean every word, im not quite as good at giving these talks to myself. though today im forcing myself to be brave and share a piece of me with the world - because i know deep down, its what i live for and its throwing these little pieces out into the universe that builds me up. im pretending til my mind believes that im triumphant again. like im on solid ground, even if im not.

as always, to book your own shoot, workshop, buy prints/license images, or just to chat email karrahbkobus@gmail.com.

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model: vinny balbo.

p.s. this is also a composite, i cant remember who i found the background from, its from somewhere on deviantart! will try to find it again...

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Taken on: October 1, 2014
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