-there were 8 references to rape or murder
-15 references to police officers
-2 references to “Gary M Rogers”. I have no idea who that person is.
-2 references to IBM, where the rapist works.
-The daily online stalking and harassment has mainly been through Flickr. There has also been harassment from the same people through reddit, Instagram and youtube.
-The android user has always been the really hateful, obsessive, controlling abusive one. 7 & 1/2 YEARS of consistent harassment with the intention of getting a negative reaction and then being able to judge me for it. And she views it as being a game.
-12/25/20: I mentioned to my sister in a text that I thought I may have covid and within an hour, the hateful stalker sent the message “Chinese love”.
-the most disturbing messages (besides the messages sent between 10/31-11/2/20) were sent through reddit: “When you die, I want you to see my face” and “Do you really think you’re anything more than a rotting corpse?” Sent from a woman, I think; username: ventartist.
The maximum sentence for all of this is 10 years in prison. If I had committed suicide over this (and I always thought that was the Android user’s intention, to drive me to that), the maximum sentence would be life in prison.
-3/3/21: the android user still can't stop. this person is completely obsessed. It's been more passive-aggressive lately, for example, daily messages about finding joy in the present moment. It seems like this person wants me to pursue legal action.
3/16: another creepy message received listing out "not this not that": "not booksubject not real not knit not baju (clothes) not medical not deazur not cartoon". This is a pattern. It seems like this person was bothered by the last drawing I've done. It's very bizarre. I just bought a book on amazon about psychics ( a few days before receiving this message); I think "not booksubject not real" is referring to that.
3/27: message received: "corpse".
4/3: I keep receiving applications for life insurance policies in the mail. My first thought was that this person looked up my address and had them sent to me.
4/4: this person has harassed me before through reddit (r/cptsdcreatives). recently someone with a brand new account (u/IfIwerebrave) posted a poem about rape and my first thought was that is was a veiled threat to me from this person.
If I were brave, I would have left.
If I were brave, I would have stood up, Those times, on the train.
If I were brave, I would not have smiled.
If I were brave, My no would have stayed a no And not become a yes.
If I were brave, I would have gone to the police.
If I were brave, I would have accepted the truth That they didn't love me.
If I were brave, I would have bitten and scratched.
If I were brave, I would have not buckled, Would not have made myself so small.
If I were brave, I would have dared to disagree.
I am not brave.
If I were brave, I would not be alive today.
And knowing this I still ask: What if I were brave?
4/9: creepy message of the day: "the veiled truth; rapist". Maybe all of the stalking and online harassment has been from the rapist and his wife.
4/12: it stopped suddenly today, for the first time in almost 8 years.
4/13: weird message today: "people play; to feel". I took that to mean that this abusive, manipulative person views all of this as just being a game and they probably are not capable of feeling empathy.
5/5: "toxic suicide"
5/6: "cyberbullying cartoons". Calling me a cartoon has been a pattern that has been going on for years.
5/19: "headscarf -trans". this is another pattern that has been going on for years.
5/31: the new daily pattern from the android user: "filthy" & “furious", so I always interpret that to mean “I hope you get brutally raped”. This person sees retraumatizing me about the rape, every single day as being a fun game.
6/9: the android user is still completely obsessed. Hacks into my phone and computer and harasses me about what they see. They want me to know that they don’t care about any possible legal consequences. It’s really sick.
7/8: "headscarf -trans" again.
7/23: I had fraudulent charges on my debit card and because of all the stalking/hacking into my phone and the "Imgonnadrainyourbank" comment, my first thought was that it was the aggressive stalker.
8/14: I wrote out my thoughts on this using Google search (on 8/11, 8/12, 8/13) and the usual stalking pattern through Flickr has completely stopped as of 8/12. How is it even possible that someone can hack into my phone without physically accessing my phone?
9/2: It is amazing to me that the android user still cannot stop. It seems like she is desperate to make me contact an attorney or the police. It doesn't matter if I post art or take a long break from social media, the obsessive stalking and online harassment never stops.
9/5: the aggressive stalker is back to one of their old patterns: clicking on the bull skull photo every single day. For me, the bull skull symbolizes death.
9/8: "trans woman cartoon"
9/12: I know that the guy who raped me 26 years ago, at the Delta Tau Delta fraternity house in San Marcos, TX is one of the people involved in hacking into my phone and stalking and harassing me online consistently over the last 8 years and 3 months.
9/30: the android user is back to one of her old patterns she has done hundreds of times before: clicking on a drawing of a ferris wheel, a drawing of a woman with a black eye and a drawing of a catcher's mitt. (ride, injured and catch). It's creepy.
10/4: occasionally I'll receive a notification on my computer asking me if I would like to sync my android phone to my computer, but I don't have an android phone. I think the stalker also hacks into my computer.
10/14: "woman corpse"
10/18: "filthy trans"
10/27: "trans-woman"
11/1: "cyberbullying cartoon"
12/9: "hacker eye contact". A few months ago, I saw a woman (who looked like the rapist's wife) slowly driving past my house and we made eye contact. She was driving a station wagon.
12/11: another bizarre "not this, not that" message. This is a pattern that has been going on for years, usually on or around a holiday.
"rose and sword not "sl" not fantasy not bosnian not cosplay not lego not monochrome not japan not wonder not ninja not tatoo not baldwin not sexy not marenco not norway not castle"
12/19: I had fraudulent charges on my debit card again and my first thought was that it must be someone in this group.
12/19: "open gate"
12/25: "tx police"
12/30: "wonder woman cosplay" which is a reference to a comment I wrote through google search to the person who hacks into my phone.
1/4/22: "rape me", "phone"
1/5: "rape me"
1/6: "lego rape"
1/23: "cosplay death"
1/28: "malicious smile" I think this is from the aggressive stalker/the android user. Thia is in reference to a comment I wrote recently on google search about how I remember the rapist smirked at me after the rape, happy to see that I was traumatized.
2/20: "disturbing rape"
3/13: "real corpse"
3/24: "rotting skull"
3/30: I was lying down and meditating with a stone on my forehead that is supposed to open up your 3rd eye. Afterwards I saw that there were 2 messages: "head decoration" and "ufo" (which is a photo of an ornament of an et with a 3rd eye). Have these people broken into my home and put a hidden camera in my bedroom?
4/4: "hidden camera", "abused woman cartoon"
4/10: I was watching a live video on YouTube about narcissists, the video had a live chat. I noticed in the chat someone wrote the comment “we have silenced you for 8 months lol”. I haven’t posted any art to any social media sites over the last 8 months, so I think that comment was from the stalker.