aka My birthday document -- crashing at an anonymous hotel, alone, to extract myself from the things and people that I see every day -- actually had a bit of a crisis, and this is consistent m.o. for me, to go off to myself for quiet analysis, et all
, plus to avoid worrying and thus dragging others into my wakng nightmare -- worked, with tremendous help from my beautiful niece and her amazing family (turns out, I can be wrong -+ it is possible to receive help without harming others psychologically via exposure to aspects of my psychological issues, shall we say.
..- I had the pleasure of really spending time with Juan, her husband, which I suppose means my Nephew-In-Law, and it's heartening that she met and married a truly good man, good person, a gentle warrior who's just returned from overseas deployment. The kids are amazing! Have known them all their lives, and it's been a real pleasure to enjoy talks, at each of their stages, as they've grown up, witnessing their rapid evolution in terms of awareness of their world, and their degree of interest with regard to interaction, and a nascent philosophy about it all, et al. I'm rambling, a bit, but even though it started in the ER, and involved the previously mentioned crisis, not to mention the grief without end for my parents, and more, it was perhaps the best birthday of my life,. Out of chaos, very simplistically, sometimes clarity of a sort emerges. M & E, my niece's beautiful daughters, entertained me, sensing something akin to depression. Very young, but so talented and intelligent and capable of tremendous empathy. Although E's been prophesized to one day be an assassin, I'll skip that for now. My Mom once told her, however: "We'll still love you anyway." Too many family members unable to discuss their work. Makes sense, actually. She's emulating, in a sense. Sweet. ;-}. Although I've been a vegetarian many times over the course of my life, I do eat meat occasionally, and Juan gave us all the gift of his first batch of Brisket. Remember, this is Texas! Most first attempts are probably flawed, plagued with grievous errors at one or more stages. Juan's, however, was perfect. Seriously. I've been to a place accused of serving the best BBQ in Texas (pictures of celebs and politicians from here on the wall autographed), but Juan's.first try won out,in everyone's opinion. BTW, when he saw the ragged headphones pictured, asked me to retire them, giving me his personal JBLs, gear that accompanied him in Iraq. so many moments like that throughout.
ok. I'm not social/don't play well with others. Not a choice. Doctors inform that I was born this way. Atypically language. High IQ. Tedious and bizarre at times socially, et al. My Mom always told me how important family is, and how they will try to understand you (oddball me), and are accepting. As always, she was right. Certain eeopleople that form a sort of Flickr family, too...... and old friends who write letters and check on me, regardless of whether or not I reciprocate. I realize how fortunate I am that such people at different moments over the years have entered my life, and I want/need to seize a moment to simply say thank you. Salud. 8^)
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