I wanted to post an edit for this.. The friend that I asked for prayers, she has passed. My heart is broken. She needs prayers, her family, her children, (I need prayers right now too). I'm taking this incredibly hard. I was there, at her door.. But we sent the police to open it. She was on the other side. I've always been there for her, and her for me- since we met. I love her so much. My heart is absolutely shattered. I just thought I'd update everyone on the girl that I spoke about below. She's no longer with us. I suppose the pain was too great. I'm broken. This wasn't fair to anyone. This isn't fair.
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SOOC. (straight out of camera) unedited. I love how this came out.
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My X = My 100 Favorite Places in Southern New Jersey, to take photographs!
Location: Someone's yard, in Hammonton, New Jersey, USA (Atlantic County)
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#mentalhealthawareness
I had to upload a photo today. I had to talk. And this one is not about me, but it's effecting someone I love tremendously - it hurts me.
Someone I know, who like MYSELF -also suffers with mental health.. She's been going thru a lot - she's had a rough life.. But she's shining. Thru mental health and addiction- she's overcome.. (Although, as some of you know- mental health is unfortunately something that we have to deal with, I think forever- at least that's what I've told myself - because that's how I feel).
So, she's been thru so much... she's been hurt, she's overcome addiction and just passed her two years sober. She's doing so well. She's such an inspiration to so many.. (People look at this beautiful woman and say, "Wow, if she can do it.. I can do it!" & they do.)
She's such a great friend and she's always there for me.. and vise versa.
And something has happened recently, well really it's a chain of events - (that I've noticed, because she isn't much ready to talk) but being her friend- I've figured this chain of events out.. and it's not good.
So, she's shutting down. And I'm so worried. But I know she can get through this. I know how strong she is.Anyone who knows her, knows how strong this beautiful woman is. Although at the moment, she might not feel like she can go on.. I know in my heart, she will get through this.. if she just hangs on a little bit longer. And I'm so worried. SO WORRIED.
When she didn't show up for her normal routine, I knew something was off. And then I got a text message from someone who knew nothing about any of her situation, concerned about her. And then I figured out the big problem (or one of the snow balling issues, but the big topper). And I started to panic, within myself. Before coming to any solid conclusions I had to make sure that I was correct.. So I did that, and unfortunately I was right. And all of these alarms started going off inside of me. So I had to leave my current obligation to reach out to her. And I did. And this beautiful woman, who always opens up to me.. wouldn't.
She told me she didn't want to talk, so of coarse I gave her space & time. But my heart is broken for her.
(When I realized all of this, I had to run to the bathroom-I almost threw up. I got so sick to my stomach, and my heart broke. I know I'm only feeling about 18% of what she is, so I truly cannot imagine.)
I don't know how much space and time I should give her.. Because I know her. And I love her. And I'm so worried.
But I know in my heart, with all that I am.. that IF she holds on just a little bit longer.. And pushes through.. that even though it might feel like the end of the world to her- it is NOT. And she can get through this, and shine - like she always has done in the past.. Because she's a fighter. Such a strong, beautiful - inspiring angel. But she just needs to fight through this one too...
And life is filled with these fights. And sometimes, it feels like some people get bombarded with a whole bunch of 'fights' and struggles all at once.. and it almost feels unfair. But I do know in my heart, that God doesn't give us a struggle that - what we can't get through.. And all of these struggles he puts in our lives, serve a true purpose. We may not ever understand the purpose of these events that happen to us, but one day - they will all make sense, I believe that. I know that.
But I need her to fight right now. I need her to hang on, and be that strong fighter that I know she is.
Because the storm cannot last forever.. And the sun always comes out and shines after the storm. Sometimes there is even a rainbow! & I believe that there is going to be a big rainbow after this storm, my love. Infact, I know that there is!
I'm asking for all of your prayers. PLEASE! Please pray for her strength.. And ask God to put some peace in her heart. And please ask him to remind her- of all of the things that she has learned over the years.. (to keep her strong and sober & here with us). Please.
◼◾These beautiful flowers are the sunshine after the rain. One of the gifts that God puts in our lives to show us, that it'll all be okay. And without the storm, there would be no rain.. & without the rain.. these flowers (or life itself) wouldn't be possible. So remember that, there is always a plan & a reason. No matter how bad it seems to get, it WILL get better.. that I can promise. & I know this will. I KNOW IT. Please just hang on. I love you.◾◼
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Any and all thoughts & prayers for my friend are appreciated & much needed right now, please!
We need as many as we can get. Thank you!
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