January 4, 2023 Subverted Selfie Project Post

January 4, 2023: today’s #prompt is again from @rachelastorauthor’s @dailyom program, WRITING TO UNCOVER THE #AUTHENTIC #SELF and it asks, “Have you ever used an "obstacle" as an excuse not to get started? Did you regret it?”

I’ve sadly used #obstacles as an excuse to not get started on #creative endeavours. My unorganized #mess has lived with me for just over a decade now. I would get going on #cleaning it up in-between #semesters & I’d keep going into the start of a new one, thinking I can delay #homework a bit if it means I get things organized again. But then I #underestimate how much work is needed to #cleanup, & I fall behind. I get #depressed, & even physically ill, & I fell behind with the cleaning again. Rinse, wash, repeat. Rinse, wash, repeat.

I often refer to the last twelve years of my life as a #lost decade, one that saw a significant long term #relationship & job that I loved come to end. It also marked a time when I decided to work on completing my BFA through @kwantlenu’s @kpufinearts department. And finally, it also saw me grapple with the worst #health crisis my Mum ever endured in her own life, which culminated in her having triple #bypasssurgery. I do devote a lot of time to taking my Mum to appointments, & to go shopping. I also help in her #yard, which helps me exercise, although as I’ve documented here, that’s yet another area I’ve fallen behind in.

And all of the above has impacted my ability to lead a more creative life of #writing, creating #visualart, as well as more fully exploring my interests in #spirituality or #neohumanism - my desire to #cultivate #unconditional #compassion, #curiosity, #empathy (can authentic empathy ever really be conditional though?), forgiveness, gratitude, love, & reverence for all life, human & nonhuman across the universe, starting with myself.

I shot today’s photo with my SONY ZV-1 digital camera sitting at an odd angle, & through the #foggy plastic #lid of a @BostonPizzaCanada #takeout #container. I found myself up late again this morning, thanks to my insomnia, & ended up in the kitchen eating chips while reading about photography.

This is my 4th photo in my subversive selfie project for 2023.

This was originally posted on Instagram.

Some rights reserved

Taken in: Canada / British Columbia / Surrey / Elgin (show map)

Taken on: January 4, 2023

Tags:

cleaning

curiosity

yard

unconditional

health

homework

writing

creative

underestimate

visualart

empathy

cleanup

foggy

AUTHENTIC

takeout

depressed

bypasssurgery

mess

semesters

lost

neohumanism

cultivate

compassion

relationship

spirituality

container

lid

obstacles

prompt

365: the 2023 edition

365:2023

Day 4/365

04-Jan-23

selfie

self-portrait

self-portraiture

portrayals of the self

portrait

Steve

Steven

Steven H. Lee

Steven Hanju Lee

Steve Lee

Steven Lee

steveleenow

steveleeart

art

fine art

fine art photography

photography

photo

photos

art photography « less

Sets appears in: • ARTWORK: subverted selfies 2023 • ME: steveleenow

Groups appears in: • 365: The 2023 Edition

Camera: Sony ZV-1, f/2.8, 0.8 sec, 9.4mm, ISO 125 (more info) (hide info)

Camera:	Sony ZV-1
Lens:	Sony 24-70mm F1.8-2.8
Aperture:	f/2.8
Exposure Time:	0.8
Focal Length:	9.4mm
ISO:	125
Exposure Bias:	0 EV
Flash:	Off, Did not fire
Exposure Program:	Manual
Exposure Mode:	Manual
Metering Mode:	Multi-segment
White Balance:	Auto
Color Space:	Uncalibrated
Software:	Instagram
Show full info

Stats: 575 views

go back

Link to this photo view:
Link to this photo large view: